Last Night

    

     I always wonder why I choose topics to my notes which are close to nature these day may it's just because I'm living close to nature more and more... so last night was fun we had such a great food after soo long almost 2 months I guess, another sleepless night as usual I almost spend my night with some best and some most creepy tracks on my phone's playlist it contains almost 500plus songs some repetitive some useless I barely edit it just because I'm such a lazy bitch ..now a days I don't feel alone very much I thought I will but the bigger bitch is time it flows much faster then anything even a sun rays took 8mins 20 sec but this time thing he's the only reason for every mess in our lives normal people use to call it " accha waqt" and "bura waqt"..  

             Now as it's my third note  I've decided to write every note to early morning firstly yes It's will be fresh as others and i got chance to make fun of sun and many other dramatic creatures, i know what you are thinking that's really bad but no that's what I am.. You know I'm 24 year old with enough good and bad senses somehow  I know what's good and what's wrong for me if i can make decisions to my self if I'm alone in a place called Neverland where there are countless creatures all around  and i am not making any sense for them then why can't I be a ruthless, everyone needs to raise there attitudes towards this world I think, anyone can rule by there own, all I want is to be like that moon between those countless stars . 
        Last night he(moon) was with me again even on my bed again with that wind I love with his white light it's like extra topping, so we spend a quality time together for a while as he was traveling so I 'd share some of my favourite tracks with him  I hope he liked it ..  

And for rest of all "you stay with that drama, let's just be real"

            

The morning

                  SO just having another morning moments with myself ..it's lighten up out side sun is on the way but I don't usually wait for it.. It's just been an hour when i just dropout my earphones not because I had enough of music for whole night it's for the azaan i want to listen i don't remember now how many sleepless nights i am having since 3-4 years so I've discovered that I'm not a morning person I'm a totally a night person as anyone can relate it to my last note but whatever it is i always love to hear azaan in morning there is a silence all around the mood who left me hours ago and now to break a silence to making me feel better I have this azaan ,I always just close my eyes and listen to it it's like meditation to me i can forget each and every ups and downs happens to me a day before.. it's just how I felt more close to nature..there's nothing religious thing in this whole process.. sometimes even i love how the rings bell in the temple near to my boxed room..oh it's coming out from the building behind it's look like golden orange

Its soo big..people don't know about a thing of me i can stair the sun for a very long time but on other-side i hate lights too..being a night person i just love the darkness.. I always wonder how could I be a night person I'm not a hippie,is it a habit or a disorder i really can't figure it out.. so this big orangish thing changing it's color so I'm not liking it all it's different from my moon he never change it's color at-least he's just not there for a time but he's there for me at least a fortnight and on that time he was just mine and for my darkness but this big creepy thing is just like a another person around to me always change just like they change
  from last two day's I felt confused what to write what not but then I thought just stop thinking and start writing u'll get words to your imagination and moments for yourself automatically and I thing it's working and it's making me happy I'm gonna continuing  this for rest of my whole life so it's 7 in the morning and it's best time to just shut up my thoughts...
  At least for a while...

The Moonlight

                 It's was middle of the night .. rest of the day was great got a new job kind of having mixed feelings inside mind and heart sometimes even right, im feeling confused, just try to roaming around in the room no idea but it's a again gonna be a sleepless night ..may be I'm missing something in this life or in simple human language they called madness.. as roaming around just standing in balcony out of the boxed type room which was filled with 2 another ambitious and confused girls so while standing at balcony watching moon it was exactly at the top and it was like a spotlight usually I hate spotlights only focusing a personal one and it pointing out to you but somehow in middle of the night I'm quite enjoying it like no one can watch me or may be watching like I'm the only one and the feeling of the cool light it's like a fresh rain water droplets sometimes it touching me hugging me with this wind i can feel it on my arms it reminds me someone but that's a totally different matter and it didn't even matters so just analyzing my whole day a week or a life or a upcoming challenges i have to face from now but hold a second is this is the right time  to do this or i just have to enjoy the melody of wind .. I think that would be better ..this mind have so many things to say , shout it's not quit inside ... 

              tones of things are happening around myself sometimes wanna show concern to every single think but sometimes I just don't wanna give a damn shit on it , i think it's better to ignore everything else and good enough to feel this moonlight which also traveling around for many of them like me or may be it just here to spot me only...I just wanna click a photograph of this moment in my mind for rest of the life for my old days .don't know if i can find these notes I'm writing right now  or not but its making me feel better and better only for this moment...